Yesterday was a learning slide, there was general curve for this one. It was more of a moment of “oh shit” and there is no turning back kind of things. So I fell head first and just kept swimming.
I sat and listened. I observed. I assessed. I made the evaluation. Then after it all I followed the process. Step by step. I went to the right people and ensured to check each box along the way. I consulted with the one person who needed it and that was the moment I watched myself become a tiny person. The moment I started to shutter and shake. The moment I watched my evaluation become invisible. It was no longer heard. It no longer was valid because I wasn’t the one they wanted to hear it from.
I now need to pick myself up and try to grow again. Try to prove that I’m worth the time of one person. Show that I’m not an invisible opinion.